A thought, a penny

Our landlord increases our month to month rate while she did not increase others historically. She does not give us advance notice as required by the law in CA, yet my husband is afraid of moving. Out of the mercy and fear, I swallow the situation and pay the increased rate.

I borrowed a Casio game CD from local library for my in law because that seems to be the most interesting thing to them in Las Vegas. I did not do it from my love but God’s love as I felt deep separation and hurt by their behaviors. However, I got a call stating there is user manual not returned. I don’t believe it was with the CD I borrowed, but which I will be responsible for as I did not report it. When I tried to make it clear I did not know there should be one, could it be possible the manual is still on the shelf, I got a very impatient answer.

I was scheduled a week ago to do a consulting project with a financial firm. I nervously spent my time and try to do a good job. However, it was cancelled at the last minute due to a sudden change of their priorities.

I was also promised to get updated information if I will join Law Firm #3 for a project starting in January. But I did not receive any message from my contact when I contacted him. He is in China and not coming back until early February.

I felt I am losing my husband to another woman, his Mom. He spent quite long time in their room with door closed. I went to look for him three times and he is in the parents room. Eventually he comes to find me because he wanted me to set up dinner.

All these happened in two days, back to back. In the mist of it, I went to our Christian counseling class, where our teacher said every though going through our mind is a choice we make, we are advancing someone’s agenda, if not God’s then is satan’s.

If I told myself I will put penny after penny so that we can buy a house in Silicon Valley. I will be insane. But this time, I really want to try out, under each of the above circum stances, I will still trust God, praise God and be thankful to Him, as a thought, one by one, advancing God’s agenda not mine, not satan’s, be a weapon of God, not the world’s, not the situation’s…..

What will happen?