Be courageous.

"For the Lord our God will be with you wherever you go."

Last night, late at night, my husband asked me if I heard of Christopher Yuan. I quickly run through my thin data base of Asian CEOs of start-ups, top litigators etc...Then he told me Christopher Yuan's live story.

Then he asked me if we would be able still to pray with other people, like Chris's parents did, if my son is unconventional like Chris. I first reaction was I would commit a suicide long before his mom.

My 9-month old was in deep sleep and I was in tears. I really do not know what his life contains. Teenage years, adulthood...Maybe I should fast and pray every Monday so that his life does not have any difficulty. But isn't that there is only one way to learn about the depth of life--in its difficulties, knowing the limits of our own strength? I wept. Father God, can you give me all the troubles he will have, all the pain he will bear, so that he can be trouble, pain free?

Today, accidentally, I saw a group of young girls, singing "Be courageous, for the Lord our God will be with you wherever you go". (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjtJ4Bq3oY4&feature=related)
All of the sudden, I am released from the dark cloud from last night, not because of the lyrics, but because who sing-- a group of young people, pre-teens. Our next generation can be just like them, sing with freedom, dance with joy, regardless the circumstances, as THEIR heavenly father will be with them wherever they go.